million, billion, trillion

Are you trying your best
to not fall apart
to keep it together
to stop your heart
from shattering into
a million pieces
a billion shards
a trillion fragments;

Are you trying your best
to stop the threads
unravelling
wearing to frayed
stopping the rot
from turning to rust
forming a crust
seeping with pus;

Are you trying your best
to reclaim, reset
salvage what’s left
come up for air
begging for mercy
screaming inside
.. bleeding outside
.. scouring signs.

© Emma Calder